Well what to say what to say. I am just so lost but then again i know what i want to do. Life is so complicated and i dont know confusing. But then again it isn't.
I think that i have bad timing and it is starting to frustrate me. I know what i want but i scared to just make the jump. Gosh and it doesn't help that i don't got all the support that i want. Like it is so hard to tell my friends what i feel inside. I just think that they wont get what i am talking about and that they don't even care. But why would they? They do have there own drama going on right now even if they don't want to adimit it. Well yea i don't know i wish that I never went to highschool. I just want to be 6 again when i believed in fairies and princesses. And when it didn't matter what guys thought of u and that they were just ur buddy now it is so hard to just be a friend with a guy and not have any complications come with it.
I think basically i just want out of highschool. I want to move to Cali and get my life started from there and not have to go through highschool. I can't wait till i am in Cali after i graduate. I don't care what happens out there cuz i know that i will make and make my dream happen. I'll make with our without my friends and fathers help. Well to much going in my head right now i think that i will go before i spill like everything. lates

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