Well you know what sucks I hate my dad. But I really do miss him sometimes and it sucks cuz there is nothing that I can do about it right now. Cuz he moved to Maine and I haven't really talked to him. He seems that you doesn't want to talk to us anymore. The other day I was looking on the internet being bored so i looked up my dad's artwork and I could remember when he was making some of them and I don't know I just missed him and I missed the art world its so screwed up mine and my fathers relationship when I was little and he lived with us I was a daddy's girl to the max and now Im not a daddy's girl and Im not a momma's girl. I am independent i guess you can say I don't like depending on anybody and when I have a boyfriend I didn't want to depend on him but I think that with time I might have and I m scared that I would get hurt and I don't want to get hurt. Thanks dad what a way to fuck up your kid.
And now sam is pissing me off he needs to grow up and we aren't speakin which I am fine with I think. Yea I did like talk to him and hanging out with him. But maybe this is for the best.
And matt needs to know what he wants and stop messing with my mind. He thinks that this sam thing is his fault and its not yea maybe a lil but not all of it. It is between me and sam not him. And he needs to figure out what he wants to do with Brit and I don't know I wish that he would tell me that me and him don't have a chance but that we can still be firends cuz I like talking to him. I also hate it that my friends are gettin sick of hearing about me and matt and sam. If you don't want me to talk about it anymore well then Fucken tell me I don't want to bother you guys with my problems. So sorry if im gettin annoying. well I am going to go. lates.

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