Well I am sitting here in class. This time I am allowed on the computer.
Wow that was a really intense entry that I wrote the last time.
There hasn't been a lot happening in my life.
Only that yes I hate to admit it I still feel alone but not so bad. I DON'T have feelings for Matt anymore. I have lost all my respect for that boy. He has messed with to many minds and I am just thankful that I didn't fall for it again. I know now that he is to blame for everything. He messed up mine and nikki's relationship. Mine and Sam's. Mine and my moms for awhile. He messed up with Kellie and Brittny and Now he is on to Destiny I just hope that she is smart enough to know when to get out.
I think that if I never met Matt what would my life be like? Happier of course. And me and Sam might still be together. I don't know.
I am happy that me and Sam are talking again. But just nothing has changed and that kinda sucks I wish something had changed anything. Well yea some things have, we aren't close anymore. I miss just going to him and him just giving me a big hug and telling me everything will be okay. But no. We can only say hi and a quick catch up on each others lives then a bye and a quick hug. Wierd how it is. Its just so different than how we all acted during the summer.
God the summer. I miss it. I miss the warmth of the sun,the most and how I didn't have to worry about my grades. Just to have fun like that and not care about anything else would be great to have again. But I guess it only comes once a year.
Well I don't know what to tell you. Umm yea Kelsey and Robert are so cute together. Even if they don't act like a couple most of the time. Im so happy that crys and josh and doing better. It better stay that way too. lol. Nikki and kev are cute to but I hardly get to see them. This weekend my grandpa and aunts are coming down. I have to find away to get out of the house. I can't stand to be around my family to much. lol. well I am going to go and find something to do. lates

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