Hi wow its been awhile. Okay Iam in 5th hour waiting to be taken out. I am suppose to give blood today for the blood drive. Im kinda nervous at the moment. Im kinda having second thoughts. okay not really i want to do it just so that I can get out of class. hehe.
Well hmm what to say okay I don't know what to say. lately I have been missing my dad alot. But I think that the minute that I talk to him I am going to wish that I didn't I love him yes but I don't like him. I love him for being my dad. but I hate the person that he is. I don't know it scares me that ppl say that I act like him and that I look like him. I know one thing though. I can change it if I want to. I don't have to be like him. right? He wants me and my sister to go up to maine this christmas. Andi said that she might go but I don't think that I want to. I don't know if I trust him enough to go up there. And I don't like the cold that much. lol. difficult me like always. The thing is though if I don't go for christmas I might have to go for spring break or maybe even sometime this summer. I don't want to go during my summer. Thats like the only season that works for me. Its the only season when I am truly happy. God I sound all depressed. Im not. well I m going to go this is boring. talk later.

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