Hey everyone okay like i haven't written in this thing in forever. Omg a lot has happened. since the last time that I wrote in here. Okay let me fill u in briefly I had a chance to be with the one person that would have treated me good and i said it wouldn't work cuz I was scared that maybe he would take away that happiness that he would give me and yes i know that he would have if his ex wanted him back so i didn't want to get hurt so i basically said no. Then with my ex I hate to say it but I have been a tease lately when it comes to him. Yea i care for him i guess but not like i use to hehe. so I just mess with his mind from time time making him think that I want to be with him again. Blah im so bad. muahhhahah! lets see what else. i have been going to parties alot and i think that it is freakin my mom and some of my friends out mainly the ones that don't party. They dont want me to drink or smoke. its kinda dumb. I don't drink to get drunk I may have a few sips of my friends other than that I don't drink and I don't drink beer cuz its nasty and I don't like hard acohol either. and of course i don't smoke Im not a smoker and i really don't like the smell but I have smoked before and no not resently. Hmm what else is going on with me. I have a new best friends and they are hannah and kari. I have a blast when Im with them and i feel like i don't really have to put on a show when Im with them. i don't know why but thats how i feel. Plus they know how to have fun which is always good. The best part i think about them is that they don't always just talk about boys we talk about other stuff. which is a relif . hehe. i must be going crazy I guess cuz i don't really like tellin ppl what i feel about boys and which boys im hooking up with anymore. blah. what else can i tell you. I feel like the next year is going to be a blast and if itsn' not then Im going to make. lol. I do care about grades and college but all I really want to do is have fun and not really worry about anything else till the time comes for it. and yes I plan on gettin a job this year i kinda have to if i want to go shoppin which i love to do. I want to change my life and no not for the worse but the way that I want to live it. It seems like for the past years I have been living my life acorrding to my parents and my friends. so Now its my turn to live my life the way that I want to live it. So don't plan on me doing what my partents ask of me all the time or my friends. Not to mench school. I am so sick of it but i guess if i want to get into college im going to have to keep my grades up. Im a smart girl I shouldn't be failing just to piss off my family. hehe but it was fun in a twisted way. lol. Well what else can i tell you guys about what is going on in the bubble of globe. Matt is back with brit and i don't know if it is going to last this time I am hoping that she has changed and sorta not. but oh well i don't plan on gettin to inovlved with that relationship again. and lets see Im not going to get back with sam Maybe make out with him randomly some times hehe. (hey what can i say he is a good kisser) lol i know to much info for some but i speak the truth. well i think that is all that i can tell you about what is going on with me if you want to hear about the other ppl's drama in the bubble u will just have to wait and see what i write next. well laters.

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