hmm wow what to say what to say well first off im sitting at vida which our coffee shop in my town and im bored out of my mind. i know taht i should be studying but i son't think thta i would be able to.
there are these two ppl who seem to know each other maybe they are related its interesting the girl just and no the guy doesn't seem to know what to do but to go back to work.
there is this other girl in here who is doing some homework she looks like she is in college she seems to be very into her studing i wish that i could be liks that. her ipod is connected to her i know how that goes. i don't know hoe i would surive with out my ipod haha. its really good at tuning out stuff that u just don't want to deal with.
then thre are these 2 old men in her and one is wearing the most amazing cowboy hat its so funny. the other one has an hunters cap on. they seem way into what ever they are talking about. that is usually how most older men are. they are very interesting. they seem so different but like thy have been friends since they were young.

i want to be like that with my friends i want to go and grow up and meet them again someday and talk about everything that i we have done with our lives.

last night was a way interesting night i talked with my best friend and we haven't talked like that in a long time. with me moving away to the next town over its way different our relationship. we are still best friends just not as close. all we have is texting cuz he hates talking on the phone and it is so hard to tell your feeling and express your thoughts in a text. he has changed and grown up. i miss him. we talked about how he doesn't want to give up on life. he use to not know what he wanted to do in life. he never had confidents in him self to do anything good or to make anything with his life. but ever since my sister and him broke up he has changed. i guess some of the things she said about what he wants to do with his life hit him hard. he made a promise to himself not to fail and to have a dream. i see a lot of change in him and hope. i love him to death my life wouldn't have been the same without him.

talking to rob made me think what do i want to do with my life. i don't know i was so sure sometimes in what i want to do. now is just hard to think about it. i love doing certain stuff but now i don't know if im good enough at waht i like to do to make it as a job. i love photography i know that will always be apart of my life. i want to study it learn more about it. but its hard cuz im from a small town how do i know that i will do good at it?

i know that first i want to get out of this small town and live. i want to feel free i want to feel like the sky is the limit no wait i don't want no limits i want the dream as big as i want.

i have so much hope for myself i just hope that i will not disappoint myself in whatever i do.

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